41 - Ready for it.

 Other than this blog for the past year. I am releasing some major things this New Black Moon and I am going to do it as proper as I can. I need everything 2025 has to offer and I am going to put my best efforts to accomplish my goals.  I have the list ready to be burned and when the moon peaks at 5ish this evening, I will be ready to burn it with my full intentions for this upcoming year. I let myself fall off the health and fitness path, but I am going to get back on it. Little by little. Mental health first. Leaving behind self doubt and thinking that I am fat. Because I am not. A little out of shape, but not gross. I need to stop thinking that I am not worthy of the things in my life. No matter how they came to me, I deserve a good life and I have worked hard for it. I will continue to do so. I am going to release the anxiety and fear that things have been good so something bad is coming. I will accept the ups and downs as they come.  I release the judgement of others...

 This should be interesting. A new week, with a new moon and the new year. I think I am going to go more anonymous in 2025 so I can really just let it out. This week's reading helped with that. Thursday I go back to work after being off for 12 days and it will be hectic. I will need to keep up and be organized. Today is supposed to be complete relax day, but it won't happen. I need to meal prep and get some things done this week and in order to prepare, I need to make the to-dos. So maybe a nap, but definitely need to get back on track with what is important. So back to doing readings to calm my mind, back to meal prep to help eat better and just in general back on track as the end of the year I got into a funk and said fuck it.  The new moon is for new manifestations and I am going to use the new year new moon to project a healthy and happy me. The new house is on my mind and every day, week and moment I am planning for it. All while PMSing. Yay. So today, I will sit with mys...

 I tried to type earlier, but was having a hard time. I wanted to go see the new house because I woke in a panic about the backyard flooding and well we went to look at it while it was warm enough to melt snow and yep a marshy backyard indeed. Then fear creeped in and even though I hate to judge. Our neighbors at the gas station look to have renters about their shop and well ... more fear. I feel bad. They will probably be our best neighbors, but maybe I wanted our house to be a little further into the country. Once the bushes bloom they will overtake the yard and hide us well though. So, all day I have been sitting uneasy. Did we jump into this? Yes, but that seems to be the best method for us. We are scared. Comfortable and ready to move on. So now I am uncomfortable and unsure. That is where change develops into something good. Hubby has been quiet and I have been getting annoyed because I know he was keeping something from me and it was just that. It is hitting. We have a few w...

 I have been looking at them on Pinterest to try and boost my writing as I don't have much to say lately. I thought it was late, but when I woke it was only 8am. Good enough I guess. A nap will be needed as I have bowling tonight. My neck did not like the way I slept. So that is fun.  Today is purge the kitchen day and well there is a lot that can go. Then I will slowly be making it into a brand new kitchen once we move. With matching cups and shit. One of the prompts. Goal for the next 30 days: to have patience in this underwriting process and pray it all goes smoothly here on out. Each week we are preparing to move. Purging this week. Organizing what needs boxes next week, calling movers. Then packing. Lots of cleaning and cleansing. Giving thanks to this place for the last 10 years.  I think while I am off of school until the 15th, that I am going to bring back my altar. I have not done any readings in a while and to prepare for the new year I should. So, finishing up ...

 I slept in. I have the apt. to myself and the cats are being chill. It is a beautiful morning. My house is a complete mess though and it is purge the closet day. Once I pick up the kiddo, he is going to be so thrilled. My stomach has expanded because I need to fucking shit and should probably reconsider my cheese intake.  I made it through the holiday with more happiness than tears so I feel good about that. The boys seemed to enjoy our Christmas and it was nice spending time with them. I miss Jasmine a lot so that was hard, but me and hubby have a solid plan once we are settled into the new house.  I hope this house goes through. I need a good update already. Patience. I feel it there. I feel myself walking through it and enjoying it. It is coming. The new house will be ours soon. I just need to trust and be patient. I just followed up with my two leads and that is probably all I can do at this point.  I want to use my time off to get shit done around here. Much to...

 my true love did not bother me. So I could sleep in. And I did. About to have some coffee and really just relax today. Maybe, I really need a plan for the time off and what/when to start purging shit. Today though once I get some eggs, it is more baking and just hanging out.  My kiddo hung out with us for a good chunk yesterday and honestly, we were a bit worried. Who knows. His friends are most likely out there doing stuff and he is not. Hate that. Wish he was more social. No idea how to make that happen for him. Just hope and pray he figures it out sooner than later.  I need a new calendar planner. I should probably go to Aldi. I need eggs and that. I need to get back into some kind of fitness or meditation or anything really. But planning for the big move will be coming at me full force with a new year of work and new classes soon behind. How to manage it all. Another thing to figure out.  Goals for the next year:  Get into a steady fitness & wellness pl...