Adult decisions

 Still pending word on how the seller will handle the electrical issues. Leaving my mind to wander when I just really want to imagine being in the house. Too much worry is entering my mind and I am not having a good time. I made myself focus on school work for a little while and the outlines for my assignments are done. Just need to type out the drafts tomorrow and try to reply to the discussions. 

Hoping for maybe a snow day because that may be what everyone needs at the moment. So, a blast of snow, what will it bring? I might be asking for too much though so instead please just give me a sign on what to decide with this house. Wish I had some adults in my life to guide me with these hard decisions. I am exhausted. So is my husband, but he can sleep. In fact he has been since 6:30. I might take something because good rest will help with the emotions. 

I think at this time my most hope and prayers are going towards the loan and getting that approved. I would hate for everything to be null in void because I could get the loan approved. So, universe please let the loan be approved. I know what I am asking for and we are ready for the next chapter. We need our own place. We are ready. 

That is what I am dealing with now though. Not having someone to talk to or guide me through this huge transition in my life. Someone with sound advice would be so helpful right now. I am scared to make the wrong choice and disappoint everyone mostly myself. Sometimes navigating this world alone is just so frustrating. 

I think it is time for something sappy and to turn my phone off. Whatever news awaits can wait until tomorrow. 

Also, let it snow.

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