Pending

 Finally the house is showing as pending online and that made me feel better even though my anxiety is high for this incoming week already. 

School is busy with a lot of shit to do and then more comes in on Friday to Monday to end the semester. All I can say about that is then I am on break until January 16th. I am off this Thursday for hubby's bday and need to try and focus on how to make it a decent day even though we can't spend any money. Should be easy enough. 

Wondering what is going to come from the house business is stressing me the fuck out. Wish we would get answers a little faster. Just need to pray at this point and try to ground myself. Sleep would be good as I did not get it last night with the fucking wind. 

So yeah now that my lectures are finally done for the day. I will be laying in bed awaiting sleep. But hubby decided to go out so probably won't sleep until he gets home so there's that. Kind of pissing me off this week already and he doesn't seem to give two shits. I got upset earlier about him mentioning buying a poke table and having weekly games. Yes, sure. Lose money per week instead of bringing more in. Those are my thoughts and I said it like if that didn't go well in your first marriage what makes you think it will now? He really isn't thinking of the big picture and I don't have the energy to bring him to reality. I just don't. My period is coming, the house is stressful, trying to save money while buying Christmas for our kids is stressful in which he won't even fucking bring up so that is another reason he is pissing me off. Just ignore shit until I lose my fucking mind. Welp. Almost there. School coming to a close and real work ahead of me this week. A 33 question quiz to determine if I am literate and smart enough for the work world when welp I have to go do that too, full time. So, yeah a lot. Talking to him has done nothing. 

So here I sit ranting by typing and praying this eases up just a fucking little bit. I know it will get easier with some grounding and sleep so maybe I should work on that. I just need a little patience. Everything is working in my favor. I can feel it.