We won, Now what

 Holy shit, I still can't believe it, but if anything rips this away from us we will be devastated. Our offer was accepted, between quiet hell yes in the office, jumping up and down with my hubby in the drive way because we got home at the same time and took a moment together before telling our kiddo at the same time. Once we got upstairs I yelled at him stern to end calls and get off video games, then we all hugged, cried and celebrated our win. Last night was probably my favorite dinner. We always eat together, but even after we finished we sat and talked. It was a feel good moment from the outside looking in. Thank you God, universe, spirit guides and everything else that help put this into motion. 

$500 for the inspection hurts a little, but we expect some big money to come out of pocket and this will show our seriousness. Monday wasn't soon enough for the seller, but it will have to do. The barn is coming down, but not completely removed, not sure how I feel about that, but no turning back now. Our home is being put together in our heads and we are ready. I will do a proper thank you to our home from the last 10 yrs after we are settled. A thank you and cleanse ritual for all of the crazy years we had here. 

We fucking told everyone. Like everyone and if anything happens I will hide in shame for eternity. We had a free night to just watch tv and before doing so we had another moment of looking into each others eyes like holy shit we made it. That's when my silly head got into my heart. Felt unworthy, but thankful to my husband and vice versa. We are worthy. We put in the work and the universe always works out for us. Since day 1. I married my forever and now we will have a home that we all will enjoy for many more years. 

Work today and then a much needed break from that BS but pretty sure the start of the new week will bring on their findings and more bullshit. They did something to the phone lines and whatever game they are playing, I do not care anymore. I like the people I work with, I love the work that I do so I will just need to deal with the BS from the Buffalo office and deal with NF laziness. It will pay off in the end in a good way. I need to learn that I don't need to fight every injustice. Save it for when I am a full paralegal and get into some real law. 

The snow is coming and I feel an unrestful exciting winter coming! My classes are good for the next semester and I am really excited about those. Hoping my baby kitties handle the move well. I know they will like their little door to adventure and all the space they will have to hide, sleep and play. Getting them to that moment worries me and I wonder if there are chill pills they can take, lol. 

Praying everything stays on course and allowing myself to breath a little. Jazzy seemed a little off putting about the house, but not sure where it was coming from other than the fact it will be a little longer before we see each other again. I am aware it has been more than a year and it is getting to me too. 

Middleport does not have a mayor so that dream is still on the table too. 

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