Trying not to dwell on yesterday

 Wondering how to go into work without a shit ass attitude. I did it yesterday. Even got all dressed up and feeling good ... then work happened. I was trying not to bitch about it, but I am me and ugh just need some control. Just kind of sick of no one responding to our clients and then when saying something about any fucking thing in this office - reprimanded by HR every fucking time. I have decided to talk to the union to see about maybe them backing me up, but at this point I need to keep my head down until I finish school. So, HR meeting today I will do my best to say okay whatever you say and move on. Easier said than done, but nothing much I can do. I will do my best to apply that to the toxic ass place. Also, everyone I work with is two faced and I really trust no one so there's that. Feels familiar like M&T, not sure what I can do different here. I backed down there and did my job in silence while that bitch lied to my face too. That is probably what I need to do. Not trust anyone. Switching job looks bad on home loans so I just have to stick this out and do my best not to let it kill my spirit even though I came home to cry. I did go back after an hour n half so I am improving there. Maybe that is the lesson, no one is your friend at work. All of this stress before 8 am. 

I didn't even have it in me to fight with the kiddo about going to school. He says he isn't feeling well and well neither am I. So, I am letting him stay home. He will learn that if his grades aren't up to par, he will have less - reminder take the fucking Playstation out of his room.

At least school is going well. I have one more small assignment to submit which I plan to type out today and then I can read my $80 school book on a class that I am probably not even taking. Oh well it counts in my head. I think I did okay enough on the big assignments that I turned in. The one class is just basically shit I already do or try my best to do. Goal setting and what not. Next week is critical thinking. That might be useful. Then I am halfway through this session. 

Got sidetracked and noticed my new classes for Winter were up - I should of got the Legal Research and Writing book. It is coming up. Yay! Guess I will get ready for work now. 

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