Overly excited or confident?

 We will find out which one of those things soon enough. I have gathered our first round of what I assume many for the documents to provide for a loan in hopes, prayers, dreams, and anything else that this gets us the loan to move in. I jumped up and down when we saw my son's grandpa after the news and he went to realtor mode and said " don't get to excited until we have the closing date" so of course panic set in. Calmer today as I was able to get back into the M&T system and get my info from there. 

I also discovered a scary site where all of my employment history including pay was stored. Downloaded for free with no real verification other than my social. Not sure how I feel about that. Now we all sit around like wtf do we do. Other than my kiddo screaming at Fortnite. We have bowling later and after discovering Charlie's ex being a little shady we are up $135 more than we thought. Discovered after bills we will be a bit broke this week due to the $500 inspection. I still feel move in coming though so it will be worth it. Just need to be patient with the holiday of Thanksgiving and what not. 

It was a good day, even our oldest boy came to visit and eat. That was really nice for everyone. Felt more like a holiday than the last couple years. I tried to hang out at my sisters, but just really not ready to act like everything is squashed. She went really low with the things she said and the fake happiness about the house is just not energy I want to let in. Even though her kiddos are super excited and well they are the ones that count because I want them to know they have another place if ever needed. My nephew bear hugged me so tight. Love those kids so damn much. The first holiday in the new house will be Easter and that is actually my favorite one with them. Before my kiddo was even born I had a standing Easter egg hunt with her first 3 girls. 

A little worried about moving my babies. All they have known is this home and I am worried our older one will have a hard time and the other two will follow his lead. I have a solid plan and that is where my bestie will need to come in. 

I don't have a lot of time before we need to leave the house today on this freezing, but sunny day. Everywhere south is getting slammed with snow. I do not think it will make it up this far, but hope it cancels bowling. It would help save a little money. lol a whole 13 bucks. LOL. 

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