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 I need to release some things while Aquarius is making it's way into our lives for the next 20 years. I think if my intuition is telling me right is - I need to release the old me and just keep going at this amazing path I am on now. It feels right. I feel something inside that wants out. but not really sure what it is. Probably sadness. Depression always lingering. I release that. I release anything that brings me down. 

I should probably write this more than type. Just feel it has more meaning when written. 

Either way - I think I need a good cry. Finally release all of this abandoned emotion. For Good. I am aware on how to set up the next 20 years of my life. It will include love and partnership from my husband. It will include my kids joining us in our new house. It will include me finishing and continuing school until I am a full time advocate for family law. 

All of the hard work I have been putting in is paying off. I am thankful for my life, my family, my job, and whatever burdens my minds tries to put on me being lifted. 

I will continue to love myself and take care of my health to the best of my ability. I need my body to cooperate a little more. Hopefully some answers come on Friday. 


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