More gratefulness

 Thinking about my goals and how this should be a laid back job to get me to the big ones, I should be thankful. I can read my books and study to my hearts desire. Today I will get plenty of time to do some work in the expensive ass book I bought and really start digging into it. I am counting it too, self taught or not - it counts as a class. 

I have my health and family to be thankful for. Even though I have been slacking on the working out, my health seems to be in good shape and I have taken the steps to get there. Today I have a gyno appointment. Finally. I have been putting that one off, but maybe they can shine some light on this perimenopause shit. So, thankful that this place lets me change things around so I can take care of my health even though they are half the reason I have been sick and just down in the dumps. 

Tonight is date night with honey and we will bowl then maybe grab a bite to eat - I am thinking Wendy's nuggets and a Frosty. Not sure why, but that has been my go to lately. I actually ate myself out of liking yogurt this week so my eating habits are shit, but I feel like I am not doing too bad. I need to get back on track with working out and decided what I will do for the winter. I am going to pay for the Zumba app. Then I can do it anywhere, at my own home. At least until January when the classes start up again then I will jump back into those. I am still debating getting a certificate for teaching it. It would be good side money maybe and then we can have more classes at Apex. I am going to talk to Crystal and Amanda about it Monday. I am going to that class if she has it. either way I am going to do it, I think. It will keep me motivated, make extra money and help me be around people.

 I just want to find my place in the world. You would think at 4, I would, but still very lost especially after yesterday. Even though my kitties make me feel like I am the most important person in the world every day. Especially my little best friend Muffins. 

Yeah I know this is where I am supposed to be, but sometimes it gets lonely. Am I on the right path? Should I be moving or staying out? UGH this transition into Aquarius is rough and for the next 20 years, plus retrograde. I definitely need to calm the fuck down as retrograde is probably what's kicking in. So here I sit with my thoughts while I wait to go to work because I just don't want to be there until my scheduled time. The dr. appointment might take a bit. All sorts of nerves this morning. Maybe I should take a pill. 

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