Monday dread of Sunday

 Here I am trying to do my lectures for class and on and on about being a decent person in the professional setting. Brings me back to last week and even though I want to move on, they aren't so where do I go or how do I get to a point where I am not fucking getting pissed about it anymore. 

Compromise over compliance - HR and my boss has clearly missed a lot in that chapter of life. So, I get done with my school work and a very long anxiety driven day of bowling, house looking, hunger, and spending too much money at a new restaurant that was not that great and think ... fuck gotta go back to that place tomorrow. The issue was dropped and they came in weeks later to drudge it back up in hopes that I would just nod and smile. Fuck that. Now I am just annoyed and even more so by the boss who instead of backing me up bought me a copy and said deal with the hits also. 

Then in deep thought about needing more money for this amazing house and probably won't get it due to a barn that needs to be torn down. I could do it myself, but the bank has the control and well I am not pleased those Gods at the moment. No matter how much we save - more is always needed. I am tired. 

Tired of the hits. But keep moving so here I am ranting before watching some football and sleeping early because I am just emotionally exhausted with life. 

This work thing has me questioning my whole life. Am I on the right path? Wish there were better, nicer signs that I am. Trying to do right by everyone, myself, and the universe has me bogged down to just a ball of taking the hits and not really wanting to get back up right now. 

I need some good fucking news. 

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