Another bid

 So another day of BS at work with a surprise union meeting with no fucking answers and then some more BS from HR. I am over it now, but it doesn't want to seem to go away. Retrograde doing it's best already. 

Speaking of that - yeah we put in a bid on a house out in the sticks a little. I feel in love with the yard, balcony decks, and front porch. It is completely redone and not too big. Now we wait while I 2nd guess. If it is meant to be, it will happen. I don't think I will be too upset as Christmas is coming and this would hinder that completely. Even though I have missed my far drives to work for the pure moments of alone time, other than that. I hate it. My big question though - is it big enough? The 4th room ended up not even being big enough for my desk so there's that. But the room downstairs and the master make up for that completely. Yeah not sure what I am thinking. It felt like home. WILLOW TREES. 5 of them if I counted right and little fairy areas in the yard. Yes, I got weird. Right in the nook of a farm with horses and not sure what else, but bet they have other animals. Also means ... I can have goats or maybe a donkey! The guys actually mentioned a pig so there's that. We are all in love and the distance will be good. We will get used to the farm smell in the summer and maybe they will be nice neighbors who will help us be little farmers. So, we will see on that. 

I am getting school work done promptly so that is nice. I did slack a little last night our of pure exhaustion. I laid down for a few then pushed through. Not much to do today, but post a discussion and then a short quiz. Tomorrow is my big one. Midterm. 

I did not have to get my niece today so sitting on the couch until the last minute to get ready to go to work. Dreading that and I hate dreading work. I really went in yesterday with a new mindset then after the union meeting, I had a message from our union rep about the fucking NF issue. At the point, I just want to go in, do my job, and get the fuck out. They better not ask me about the moral of our office because quite frankly, they ruined it. I will go in today and not say anymore about it and I know no one will ask so there's that. 

A storm is coming and snow will arrive soon. The wind is pushing in and cold. Fitting my mood as ways. All I can imagine at the moment though is the big willow in that yard swaying back and forth. Oh and they weren't old trees that would fall anytime soon. They were just baby willows all in a row. I want to see them regain life in the spring and lay under one in the summer. There was also a little minimart next door. We are obsessed. I already thought of how much more it will cost, what if neighbors are a holes, and other things, but keep coming back to how much it felt like home. A home with a little golden doodle we adopted running about the house. 3 back decks. One tiny one with no way down just a look out spot. One off the laundry room, med size for a grill, and a bigger area for a table and hanging out. Oh yeah and a fucking front porch. Literally checked every single must have box of ours. 

If we get it, Christmas can still happen. We got CJ's big gift, we can just get little things for Ryan that add up because he is still easy enough and well Jazz might have to wait, but hopefully would be able to visit soon because we have space for them to stay and not have to pay for a hotel. The one room with the tiny balcony would be my office/spare room. Just plan on getting a futon to put in there for the older kiddos when they come hang out. Ryan's new room would be big enough for him to pull out his trundle on the brand new bed for his friends to sleep when they stay. 

This weekend we will start some things around the apt that need to be done to prepare to leave and never think about it again. JK, we will this is where our story began. So ready for our next chapter!