Period

 I thought there were no signs, but there were. Like my explosion to a simple finding out what I have been thinking all along was true. On a few accounts this week. Just really need to learn to keep to myself more often. Yes, that bitch is putting all off her calls to me all day, but it really isn't that many. I need to let karma go into effect or something I guess. I thought I made it past the test when stupid ex S.H. decided to be in my Snapchat. Again, I thought I removed him, but then I was just off that app for a while until my kiddo sent me something. Anyways, successfully blocked him and then the bullshit at work. My mouth got the best of me, but how dare you tell me to shut up and do my job. Ugh. Still trying to calm down. My appointment isn't until Nov. 7th and that should be in the prime of what I am getting down to with this PMS bullshit. No sore boobs, back pain but thought it was the cold ass weather. Being in a cozy heated blanket all day was nice, but still didn't think it was coming. 

Instead of going to Zumba here I sit with a bunch of school work done, a couple more good grades, a kitty in my lap and my fucking period. It has arrived and I should of known with the slight lunatic mode. But I did what was proper and fucking took a walk instead of straight leaving. The morning was bad, not the whole day. Yay, I am a fucking adult. Too bad there isn't anything to make my boss talk to me like I am one and not someone she thinks she can talk to like I don't fucking matter. I really need some more sage. To burn in her office. She needs to retire or something. Whoever told her that is okay to talk to people the way she does needs to go too. Fucking hot mess and I will not be getting off this train, but definitely see it about to crash. 

Anyways, so yeah. I did not go to Zumba going to have to tough it out tomorrow with full blast period on hand. Tonight is the warning shot and I can still get a bath in. But really I think I will lay in bed and read. Or sleep. Sleep should probably be my priority because I am not sure if/when and how bad it will be once the report gets to HR. So yeah good times. 

I did walk today so that's good. My legs are killing me though. A little mad at myself for taking a quiz too fast and missing out on a 100% because I misread a question and got it wrong. Still high 90s for my grades and the first session is almost complete. Next week and a half is the last of it and I will be moving on to some Paralegal studies. I really hope this shit pays off in the end because seeking jobs now and there is really nothing her that would pay me more than what I am getting now as an assistant. The pay increase due here soon better be worth being told to shut up and do my job. UGH so MAD. I think I need to try and move on with a bath and a good sleepy sleep. 

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