Release

 So, some after thought when coming to an argument about a grade. Yes, it was valid, but I am supposed to be open to learning, even if I do not agree with the grading system. So, releasing some of my stubborn ways, opening myself up to criticism and feedback. Everything doesn't need a push back. I am not arguing a point in these classes. Those will come. So, there is that. 

I stayed up too late watching the Eagles lose so now I must caffeinate, shower, and go to work. Another morning where our leaders are not present. Probably fucking us some more within the union. Hoping to use the morning to write my discussion and work on some of my school work. Also realizing that I need to be taking this time to myself. I do not need to go watch my husband bowl. That is what he chose to do with his extra time and it is supposed to give me time for school work. I should use it. Hopefully I can talk the boys into going tomorrow, but we are broke and we are supposed to be getting used to being broke so we can save some money. 

All I see in my future is a degree and a house. 

Maybe the more I focus on myself the more these guys will make some quality time for me and if not then well, that is where I stand then. I think any extra money I spend will be on books to study when I am not studying. Maybe. Probably. No Halloween decorations, buy books. 

My mind is also set on trying to cut sugar. I am not doing too good with these fucking Starbucks drinks. I need to do better. 

That is enough for now. Just tired and down. I will purge some more later before my full moon bath.