Locked in until April 2026

 Or so that is the plan. Looks like school will be more time consuming then planned, but I think I will enjoy it. As long as I can do well. We shall see. It is a lot of work and like anything worth it, hard work. So, officially since last night I am a student. With work assignments that seem to be called assessments and all. 

Tomorrow I get to juggle the kiddo in the morning. I will enjoy my last peaceful morning. I slept like shit and did not want to get up myself, but I decided not to work out so here I am. Baby steps. At this point I need to just move off my butt hourly and eat better. A quick workout later will need to fit in. Honestly, getting up to do it is rough and not for me. 

So, my first big essay is about why I choose the degree and how it will change my life once received. I have been thinking on that. It is nice because I can work on that and the other weekly assignments seem to go hand in hand to get it done. My other course is computer work but basically paying attention to details. I have to write down the actual directions for each, but seems okay enough. 

I am pretty sure I need a bigger desk though. Changing everything everywhere has been a little bit of an adjustment, but I feel it is right. My alter is a mess and my gaming stuff is just sitting, but it will be okay. My first thought for the essay is - I want this to have something of my own that no one can take away from me. That I worked hard for and no matter where I go, it is mine. Other thoughts - to not be just a mom, wife, sister or employee. Paralegal. My experience will finally have a title to back it up. So, that is where I am going with that. Then I think I need one more or those go into one. We shall see how I can work that out. 

The hard part. Time management. I was up until 11 trying to work and then that was interrupted by the kiddo, cats and well husband did okay to leave me alone. I tried to work beside him while watching tv, but he kept talking to me so I went to my desk in the room. It is nice here, but then he went to bed. So, yeah. that is where I am at with that. I couldn't fall asleep. I even took some melatonin, but now I am just really tired. I see why people live on coffee now. I will need a couple to few cups today especially if work is super busy. 

We are back to non summer hours so that extra half hour of work will be a little rough getting used to because I am usually done with everything by 4 anyways. It will give me time to think about blocking out time for school work that evening though. Thinking like right after dinner and a quick walk then getting work done. Date nights will become more relevant and meaningful, maybe. 

I hope I can keep up. Waiting for my period to start in this hectic week back to school also. My back and hands hurt. Yeah my hands from writing. 

My sister is still on this New Orleans trip. I kind of would love to go. I just think it is more likely to plan with my hubby than my flakey sister. As fun as it may be to have a girls trip to enjoy food, fun and hauntings. She wants to bring her girls, but they drink and really I do not want to be around drunk nieces. Getting my daughter there even less likely to happen than getting her to visit here alone so there is that. She has been a little off lately and well I am over it. She seems a little lost, but she will need to work that on her own and she will. 

Hubby got but hurt that we do not want to go to his nephews game on Thursday. I luckily have a good excuse now, but our kiddo straight doesn't like his brother and doesn't give two fucks about that side after how they treated me so I am not going to force him into seeing them. I might go on the condition that we don't have to sit with them. He always sticks me with his mother and I don't have it in me to fake nice. The grad party was enough. It was nice to see her, but when she looked so shocked that we have been sober for almost 2 years, that brought back how much she doesn't give a fuck about us. So, yeah. Not wasting my time there. I think I might rest for an hour as I am tired and really do not want to be ready to go too early.