Almost got me

 Well this past week was rough. It is still 80 degrees and no fucking AC because I assumed we would be entering the cool fall zone. My week ended with the college trying to play games with my transcripts. I fought hard and by the next day was able to get back into my classes. I was so pissed off and depressed. But all is good and nothing was missed. I was in panic made about getting behind because all of my work from this week was completed. I just did a final check and tomorrow new lessons drop. School work is definitely time consuming and I think I need to work a better schedule. Work was busy too, so that doesn't help as I never know when it will be there. Some days are quiet as fuck and other days I get lost trying to figure out what to do first. 

Anyways, spent the afternoon in the heat with my sis, watching my nephew tough it out in the heat. He is going to be good if he keeps this up. I really hope he does. My kiddo started bowling and that was fun to get back into. Something routine. Also thinking about this upcoming full moon eclipse and how certain things are coming back to an "eclipse." Lots on that but just trying to focus on the letting go and moving into the next phase of life. Baby steps every day. This is where I am supposed to be though and I will keep going with this school thing. I will need to find somewhere else to go maybe for my BS though. But that is a little ways away and we will see how this goes. 

I came home and crashed out hard. It is 9pm and I am wide awake. Well kind of, I can probably sleep again soon. We decided not to do anything tomorrow, but hang out at home so that will be nice. I will get a lot of school work done and be able to just relax. I really did think I could sleep until tomorrow, but the child was being loud with his friends and their video game.

I think I might play mine for a few then go back to bed. I just need a nice breeze. This heat is rough without a nice breeze. Please universe send some fucking wind. 

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