September

 Here we are already to September and I am ready. Anxious, but ready. Now taking a moment to prepare. Ready for a new routine. Football. Time with my family and nervous about school. But this is my time to shine and take some for myself. I can do it all. 

Today the rain off and on was not too motivating, but did it anyways. With some bitching to the husband. Whatever. I think deep down he likes it and if not well then kindly move the fuck along because he is in my way. 

Work ended on a decent note and my boss trying to put me out to the paralegal sharks as if I am ready to be on the team. Nah, I really do not think that is my long term goal. I miss working from home and not dealing with fucking people. No, I do not want to put myself in the middle of their work while I am trying to learn. As I stated, I am just now dipping my toes into this next journey and I do not plan on jumping in anytime soon. Also, lesson learned on who I am talking to. I know the one person I do talk to might of been the one to put me by that bus, but I did not go under it. I have boundaries and I stand by them. Pretty proud of myself about that one. So, no I probably won't be taking too much time at work to do shit, but I have made my cozy place at home and I will get the time I need. Plenty of football on the tv to keep hubby entertained and after school the kid will give no fucks as to what I am doing because he will be getting his time in before bed. It will work out just fine. 

I will be able to keep up and keep calm. I will do my best not to become overwhelmed and remember my boundaries at work and home. I will take time to myself for Zumba and staying on my health and wellness journey. Even a little bit is something. It does not have to be everything at once. I have those watching over me to remind me of that. 

I just might be doing SAGE a lot more because yes I am around toxic people and by the sounds of it - my mother may be joining in the game day for my nephew. Not really up for that, but at the same time again will stand my boundaries and keep to myself. 

I am really hoping the class info drops tomorrow and I can get logged into some class stuff. I want to label my notebooks and folders also. Monday I am off so I will be taking another self care day to do me and my mind set for the school year. Mine and Ryan's. 

Some affirmations before I log off for a bath and then honestly ... bed. 

I am meant to be here to do great things and experience life to the fullest. 

September will be full of miracles and abundance. 

I welcome change and a new healthy routine. 

My mind is set towards progress. 

I am capable of many great things. 

This is my time to shine. 

I openly welcome the change of the new seasons. 

I am excited for what September has in store for me. 

My bank account is full and abundance is overflowing with savings for our new house. 

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