Friday

 It has been a busy week and a reminder that I am not sure how much time I will have to myself once school starts. It does not seem that I will have a lot of time to work on school work from home and now I need to push for home time. 

Thankful for the long weekend and for some reason it seems something is in the air with hubby as he has partially pulled his head out of his ass. Just wants some ass, but was a different person yesterday. We will see how long it lasts. Kiddo should be leaving sometime this afternoon and we will have the whole weekend together. I do not want to do anything to mentally prepare for back to school week and well he can't sit still to save his life so should be an interesting weekend. 

I did try to go to Zumba yesterday even though I was not motivated and it was canceled. Only annoying because I hyped myself up to not do it in the end. 

So, my sister and I are on talking terms - for who long ? Who knows. Trying to stay out of things that involve opinions and just general kid stuff. Even though she did mention a girls trip for our older girls and us. It is a nice thought, but getting my kiddo away from her boyfriend seems impossible. I can't even get just her for a visit. 

My nerves are just really building up about school for myself and my kiddo. I am wishing for a good year for him without any drama and for him just to enjoy it and to make good grades. 

The bath I took really helped yesterday. I burned some sage and some candles. I might do it again. I was even questioned for my good mood lol after two cups of coffee and a gift from a coworker - how could you not be?

Looks like I should of read my moon book for September. It is time to usher in some good vibes and think about my finances. Back to saving and just basically learn to do nothing to do so. " One last chance to blow up anything toxic in your life" Good to know. 

Yep said more than once, makes plans and force out of the downward energy. Got it. Sounds about right, one of my houses literally sex & money - figure those out. Then the other hand is meeting new people ect ... Not really into that. But meeting new people as far as school and such makes sense. I just need to take time to make schedules and fucking stick to them. 

Shit, I threw out my star chart and I do not have that memorized, so I need to do a new one. 

Maybe hubby will sit down with me so we can go over money and yes, once again have the fucking talk of doing less so we can save. Again. This time, really push for this money we need by the end of the year so we can look for houses. Even though there are new rules and it still seems out of reach, we need to push to save. No excuses. Just save - the perfect timing of the house will come and we need to be ready. Out of the city, 3 bedrooms, front porch, gorgeous kitchen, huge yard, garage, and decent basement to work with. It will happen when when save. Our dream home is waiting for us by the end of next summer. 

Time to write down my star chart again, I cannot let go of my spiritual side in all this new chaos.