Friday

 Long ass week. Jamming the new Aurorawave album. I have been waiting for this shit for a long time. I think it is going to be everything I wanted it to be. Woke up early enough to shower and hang out before leaving for work. A rainy day, glad I am skipping the work picnic. I need to do some stuff for the party and then it happens tomorrow. Finally. And cannot wait until it is over already. So thankful my best friend is coming for moral support. 

Ready for the next chapter, new moon, and even retrograde - I think. I went to the school yesterday and did some work. Hopefully my visit next week will be my fucking last. Then while I was bored at work I got to thinking - one after talking with one of the attorneys - she pointed out that we never seem to be hiring paralegals. Just need attorneys - especially when they keep dropping off like flies. So, my future after doing this program. Unsure, but yes still going to pursue the paralegal thing, but I think I have come to the fact that this may not be the place for me forever. I don't know. We will see. I could suck it up and be an admin forever. But outlook not to good when the moral is just complete shit. The union I have realized is not any better for everyone. So, there's that. Then I was thinking about getting back into the Y, then thinking about doing kickboxing again and how far away it is and how much it is then - of course. Lightbulb. Maybe I should become a kickboxing instructor. How much ambition do I have for that? I love Zumba, but I do not want to teach it and my music would fit into kickboxing also. Then I thought getting the certification would be cheaper than one month of going to classes - sad I know, but then I would be certified and maybe could do youtubes or use some space around here. Mostly to keep myself going, but yes also for a little extra cash. So, thinking about that. 

Just got to get through this weekend first. In fact I think I am going to get to work at 830 so I can leave at 330. Fuck it. Meh nm I do not feel like leaving right now. 

So, getting through this weekend. Tonight should be easy enough after work, just gotta get things to make corn salsa and then I will be alone again. I am going to take some time cleaning my alter and doing some manifestation for the new moon. I got a good cry cleanse out watching Reba. Wow it hit me hard. I was bawling my eyes out then the boys called me because they were on their way home. Went from missing my Memaw so much to realizing that I have the family I want and I built it by myself. I am grateful for my life. My hubby, kiddos, kitties, our humble home, our adventures, safety, health. ALL of it. I am thankful. 

August is here and even though it is usually one of my harder months to get through, it is my favorite. Brings the scents of fall, cooler weather without being too cold, just a sense of all the hectic calming down. It is my daughter's bday month and even though I can't see her this year, I will soon and talking to her every day is what makes my day. Can't wait to send her all of her gifts. I have been getting things for a few months now. 

The party - will be okay. Just have to be around people I do not know for a day and maybe they might not all suck. LOL jk. But Ryan might bring his bestie too and if needed I will take a long walk because Charlie fucking leaving at a decent time will be impossible. 

Sunday is a date night with honey to a show where we have a table and hopefully a nice view. Billy Talent. Seeing these guys live always soothes my soul. Can't wait. I need to renew the light with me and hubby. Concerts fuel us. And that was always my dream. Also, I think if I can swing it I might do another one on the 9th because. No control and I fucking love Coheed and Cambria. We will see though. If I win a tattoo - oh wait they drew names yesterday. Fuck. I didn't win. That's okay. 

So, I think I will finish getting ready for work now.