Finally

 Maybe, but hopefully  I am done with this fucking program. Now to get the diploma before Sept 4 so I can start classes is another story. O well a little break to get back on track with my health will be good. After a day off to get some things done ended up more stressful than needed. I am whooped. The kiddo wants me to go to bowling with him and hubby tonight. I do not want to go. After the amount of money I spent today, I just want to lay down and not do shit for a bit. Eye doctor really fucked me. At least some of that will be returned. And we get paid tomorrow. But 500 needs to go back into my damn saving account so there is that. Hopefully that child tax money comes soon. 

So, yeah - done with the school program and talking to the college advisors. No diploma for like 6 weeks if I am lucky, but the lady can verify that I completed with 100% scores. The advisor said something he probably says to everyone, but it really hit me. Congratulations on getting your diploma. That felt amazing to hear. So nervous to start college, but excited to do that too. If things do not work out I just want something to fall back on. Plus maybe I can find something so I can wok from home again. Taking off the only really beautiful day we have had just to get errands done is the worst. 

So, my daughter got a dog. So, probably not going to be able to visit me. Ever. Again. Yes, being dramatic, but probably not wrong. Just thought of that and so now thinking about how shitty that feels. But the smell of Fall is in the house after caving in with the kiddo to get the plug in smelly things for the house. I want to sneeze and smell it at the same time. The best time of the year is coming. Fall. Where I can finally relax, spend some time at home or enjoy a non humid day. So, there is that. And saving money because we need to do that very badly. 

Hubby is on his way home. I went out to a late lunch with Ryan so we got him something to have for dinner. I do not think I want to go bowling. I want to sit outside and enjoy this weather. So, that is what I am going to do. 

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