Grounding inside

 Ha. Trying to ground inside is kind of silly, but I can only use the laptop attached to a plug and I have figured that I have not been doing this enough. So, trying to get myself back on track. Realigning myself to my goals. What has worked? Journaling, pushing myself and well even when lost fake it until you make it. Yeah it still sucks having to drive the force between two people - myself and Charlie, but I am going to try to focus less on him and more on myself. Just like the kiddo who wants to stop his 504 plan at school and just let it unfold without freaking the fuck out. 

Trying to center while the kid is yelling at his video game is a whole other issue. We ended up in Michigan. Yeah I know, but also compromise. Of course though the husband was not thankful. Cj was though and that is what counts. We got to be there for him even if he didn't make it much further, he made it far enough and was glad to be there. Haven't heard much from Jasmine, but hoping it is due to her being pretty busy. Waking up this morning on a day I wanted to rest to be busy until now at 7pm is frustrating, but I got a lot done. The house is clean, I meal prepped oats and lunches, grocery shopped, watched my birdies for a few after maintaining their shit and went for a long walk after dinner. 

Monday after leaving work Thursday - sick - should be quiet. Thankful for that already. Now getting school work done like fucking done and over with by the end of the week is my mission, a mission I need to push more than anything fucking thing else this week. I think if I do not get a good chunk done at work, I will have hubby take the kiddo bowling. Then Tuesday, I will not be going to the softball game, Wednesday should be doable with the guys bowling and Thursday, well that is when I have a check in. I might push until Tuesday after just to be sure I can be fucking done with this shit, but we will see. The world is on fire and I am just trying to maintain my own burn. 

So, back to the routine that got me to where I liked being. Productive, fit, motivated - This funk is flushing out and I am ready to kick this shit back into motion. Wake up and walk with hubby, enjoy some coffee and the birds with the sunrise. Journal and prepare for my day. Fit some arm workouts in there. Read my cards. And read because I have been doing that lately. Yes, the books on my shelf too not new ones. At least until the new ones get here. 

I think while it is still light out that I will go read outside. 

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