RESET

 Finally, with the help of flowing water on a trail, beautiful sounds of waterfalls and no snakes. I was able to reset, rethink and come up with a new plan. Of NOT giving up. Yesterday, was perfect. A long drive away, we found a hike, talked, ate good food and enjoyed a fucking amazing new band. Thank you Aurorawave! 

So, on that note. Some other things were noticed on our little trip. I can go out and have a beautiful time still without drinking. Almost two yrs now. So, good job. My hiking pictures ... I for probably the first time ever - the hard work of eating as healthy as I can and exercising - it is showing. Lastly, it is time to just buckle down and get this stupid GED shit done and over with. If I want it, then it has to be my full focus. No more gaming after work. No more zoning out to the fucking apps on my phone. Buckle down and get it done. Make the time. Weekends too if needed, but not to a point of burn out. So, I reset and have a new plan. 

Work might be too busy with taking calls now, so I will really need to come home and do it. I will need to fit some walking time in and workout time, but I really do not need to push so hard on that. Tonight is bowling, so we will see what I can get done today. We have a dinner for the boys' bowling on Wednesday and then Prom stuff with CJ before Charlie's game. It is supposed to rain so we will see if we can get any of that done. 

I need to shower. 

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