High blood pressure

Hair dye in my hair finally - still need a cut. But some time to myself so that is nice. For the couple hours it will be. Last night we had a scare with Charlie's new blood pressure machine and I am hoping maybe now he will take things more seriously about being healthy. Maybe. But it scared us both. Same previous plan, but need to pull through. And our kid heard us loud and clear bumping uglies so there is that. Oh fucking well. I needed some. 

Honestly though at the moment - yes I know things happen as they should but regrets of how I treated someone - an X games inline skater in fact. I never thought he would be into me even though we spent a lot of time together and he was romantic, but my young silly self hating self didn't want to believe it. Anyways, regret as he posts back stage views of our favorite band The Used. So, yeah. Looking at myself this morning and seeing the hard work and beauty I have ... just still have that stupid voice in the back of my head. I have been better about shutting it up, but maybe some of the heartache I endured before I met Charlie was well deserved. A little. 

Now I can move on from the karmic settings I had and start anew. I feel it. I see it and I will do my best to keep this momentum. My body isn't as toned as I want it, but it is where I want it to start toning and keeping some of my stacks. The work is paying off and I need to continue and continue to see it. 

Smoothie for breakfast and semi worked out while doing some chores and hair. Yeah not the best, but I haven't sat very long. Sleeping a little more after the nookie was nice too. 

My beach day however, looks to be a rainy day and that is okay too. I put slinkies on my bird feeders in hopes that the fucking squirrels will stop destroying and eating all of the food. The day will tell. I need to get my sugar water and jelly out and then I am going to mess with the water fountain bird bath. DIY so hoping I can figure it out. Then one of my last Amazon purchases won't be wasted.

Almost time to rinse. I hope this looks okay. It looked very blue. 

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