Some day ya just go with the flow

 I had no motivation to go into a crowded gym and sweat my ass off yesterday. I did walk with co-workers and that was nice. Ended up sweating so that works too. I have to become comfortable and forgiving when I just do not have it in me. The constant working out and soreness just ain't for me. I did skip the milkshake after. Tonight, might not skip dessert. At $45 bucks a person, I will be eating as much as possible lol Taking the kiddo to Wind for his birthday. A robot all you can eat sushi-Thai place. 

Work today will only be a few people so yeah maybe today I will get the rest of my work done. Yesterday ended up being busy because everyone was preparing to be on a luncheon most of the day. I opted out. I think, I don't even know. Either way someone has to stay and hold down the fort, so I am okay with that. 

This kiddo is trying to stay home today when he was told no more freebies after his last report card. Also, we took off for his bday on Tuesday so he can wait. This guy has not contacted me about the cake and it is pissing me off. No confirmed time for drop off or pick up. Has ignored my last 3 emails. May as well call that one a wash. He didn't really want cake anyways. Honestly he would like the cupcake I had yesterday from our local place. 

I think my period must be coming because the level of sleepy and just blah is here. Otherwise not sure where it is coming from because it has been so beautiful out this week and well other than having a hard time with my kiddo turning 13. He literally told his dad first thing about a gf he got and has had for a week. A WEEK. He wasn't even going to tell me. Our connection is changing and I hate it. I already feel so out of the loop with my daughter. Now my last baby and only baby boy ? It is rough. All I hear is get your own life, but they are my life. At least I don't have to worry about his loser dad swooping in to take over. I do not think he will be doing that anytime soon and if he did, welp - my kiddo will gladly tell him to fuck off. So, I have that. 

They say you forget labor, but I remember everything. Being in the hospital days before he arrived - on his actual due date - they tried inducing me for almost a week prior - induce = torture. Only to arrive an hour after it was officially May 7th. I remember people touching me and their hands being too hot and being nekkid - only having them touch me after dipping their hands in ice water. No medication as I wasn't dilated enough and then too far. My mother when she was a half way decent human and my sister - hate that I miss those people. People who want nothing to do with me. I mean it is okay, but still. Just lacking someone outside of my family duties at home kind of sucks. 

Yep sappy me = PMS ... time to poop and get myself ready & out of this funk.  

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