Journaling from work

 Finally decided to bring the laptop into work and get on their network. For beta testing purposes and school shall any new lessons come through. Just touched base with her. Trying to stay on my side of the office a little more as soon I will be `phones and sitting here bored out of my skull otherwise needs to stop. 

Something I enjoyed this morning was getting dressed and seeing how "snatched" I look. Yes, a new word I hate, but definitely seeing some results in my workouts even if they have been minimal lately. Today, I am going to do Zumba and tomorrow and Friday if she does not cancel. I have not got up to get on the treadmill because - I just do not want to. Forcing my body awake before I am ready is the worst and then I am fighting tired all fucking day. I do not like it. Yesterday, I got up and did a little stretching and dumbbells for maybe 30 mins. Good enough. Moving at work as much as possible and well eating better. Because that is where I am lacking. I did order out because we had a paid lunch but did not go overboard elsewhere. Today I packed a decent meal and hubby will be going to play ball tonight. I have to take the bad ass child to get some new shorts and then I will probably put in some more dumbbells. 

So, to the gossip and shit my kid did over the weekend. First - cleaning the yard after the night before wondering if my neighbor who has been M.I.A. since he got caught in a bunch of lies - anyways over that - the crazy bitch that caused all the issues - other than him being a fucking LIAR. Anyways - they had a kid. So, that explains everything. Hope it is yours Brandon. Ha. Yes, I said it and no I refuse to talk to or be nice to that bitch. Don't care. My "bestie" yes we are using that now because even though this is the same bullshit I dealt with, with my old one - hubby thinks it is fine. She had a bday - she said she had plans on her bday and no I did not get an invite - no worries wasn't to upset about that - offered to take out to dinner the night before - she said no - she did not want to eat out two days in a row - again fine. Cool. Was not bothered. What bothered me was a call at 5pm - saying hey plans fell through want to meet at so and so for dinner. Um --- no. No I do not. Like fucking really? Nah, so yeah even though it is not a huge whatever - still annoyed. I am not a backup plan. For fuck's sake. Maybe instead of trying to make new friends - ya should stick with the one you've got. Okay that is out and maybe now I will get over it. 

Now for my son - my baby boy whom I am supposed to be letting the leash go of so he can start growing into a young man. Having the hardest time. Saturday he wanted to be dropped off at the skate place to hang out with his gf. With one of his friends. I fucking cried. He sent me a pic of the two of them and they are fucking adorable. I cried. I also dished out 40 bucks so they could have a good time - no questions asked. He has been going to the graveyard the unsafe way on the road and playing on a tractor - again unsafe. So, when he had friends over all weekend they all got the same - please be fucking safe on my watch lecture. Then Sunday I go down to watch hubby play ball just two mins down the street - the boy comes and asks me to please make his salad so he can have dinner - i go do that and then go back down to the game - come home - sitting peacefully at like 8 ish 9 pm .... tired. Was outside all day. Just to find .... someone had spray painted the side of the house that could only be accessed through the roof. I do not think I have ever been this mad at him. Holding my ground on the extra shit I do. Things he should do himself - like make a fucking salad. And grounded. Took his phone - took his ps5 cords and controller. 2 weeks, then he mouthed off - so 3 weeks. He still has no remorse, just his bullshit I am sorry act. He does not think what he did was wrong, so ... Yeah I need to stick to this. Hopefully he will understand how upset I am and why. 

Then work - has been quiet. Or dealing with bitchy ass people so yeah another reason to stay in my little cave over here. 

It should be like 90 outside today so Zumba might kill me. We shall see. Yes, just living the motions, but living what I have built and worked hard for. I am allowed to enjoy a little. Me and hubby have been enjoying things a little too much and - we need to get back on track for saving. I went a little extra with yard bird shit this week. A birdbath we got robbed on and some other fun stuff for the 2 newbies. Have I done yoga in the gazebo? No, unless I am drenched in bug spray and sunscreen - outside is not the best. I am going to try some natural ways to keep the bugs away - if they do not work - we will need to spray. 

My baby girl started her new adventure. I think I might try to visit her in October. Tickets are fairly priced and they should be settled enough by then. We will see. I miss her. Welp time to see about these student loans I can get or doing this beta testing for this game because - yep - I want to.