Headache

 Welp sleeping in didn't happen, but not having much going on today is nice. I finally got my period and a headache. 

Last night, we went to our friend's and had a lovely night, but missed some spectacular views of the Northern Lights. Maybe if I could of stayed up later, but the glimpse we got was so beautiful. If there is another chance tonight I am definitely going to the lake. 

I gotta get the kiddo at 11 and then hubby has a scrimmage. I will get some rest today while the period kicks my ass. Hopefully this headache will go away though. 

Tomorrow is Mother's day. It is actually a really hard day for me because my mother is non-existent by choice and it sucks. It sucks less than it used to, but can't help but grief it a little bit. I used to take the sadness of the day, but I have come to realize that I am a good mom. When given the chance, I am the mom I want to be. Maybe not the best, but the best I can do. It is nice now for the short time too that I can be apart of my hubby's son's senior year. Very proud of that kiddo. My daughter knows now, that if she needs me I am here 100%. No one is going to tell me no ever again. Then there's my son and I pray every day that I am raising a good man. A better man than his sperm donor and just a fun-loving, happy, responsible man. 

Our house will be filled with enough room for all of them if needed. My son & his friends will have a safe place to hang out and be themselves. I will have a nice gym area and an office. Just so very excited for the house. Front porch, 2 stories, finished basement, beautiful yard with garage. And a beautiful kitchen to host any event that arises. It is within our reach. 

Putting it into the universe and the universe will reply. I am thankful for the abundance and everything that has already been given. SO VERY THANKFUL. 

So, when I get down about the family I do not have. I just think about how beautiful my little family is. How amazing it is that I have built the life I have dreamed of. Just my little family, some memories and soon a beautiful house we can all call home. 

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