Boiling Point

 Songs that come out at the perfect moments are just what really keeps me going. Today - Boiling Point by the new band I am falling in love with called Aurorawave and they meshed with The Ghost Inside for a beautiful reggae hard mix and I do not hate it. So yeah. 

I kind of went off on the lady at the school yesterday. I was really upset and didn't go off really, just let her know that this program is making me pretty fucking frustrated. I started one of the two lengthy lessons put into my queue and then when I went back to continue - poof they were gone. Another lesson needed corrections and it was one from over a month ago that I thought was gone. So, I let them know this was stupid and I wanted to quit. Because ... I do. I just wanted to be done by now and they take forever to get things corrected and such. I just don't know if this is the path I should be taking. Maybe I should just enjoy the path I am on and yeah I know. The reason I am doing it is so if I get randomly cut due to downsizing, I can recover because next time I may not be so lucky, but also - maybe there won't be a next time and this is my retirement job. That would be nice. After looking into it, paralegals make or start where I am already so that was discouraging. 

But then ... what path would I need? Because I am built to always need a fucking path and I hate it. How does one become content with everything they have in life? That is the real question burning into my soul. Nature this weekend should help. 

Anyways, today. Today is finally Friday after a long short week and I am glad. Work might be busy enough as it was yesterday. Fridays usually are for me, so that should make it go fast. Charlie has his short day today so he will be out at 10am. I might have him bring me lunch. My work bestie is out so maybe I will make him walk with me. 

Then later we are going to the school for a Unity Fest to get dinner from food trucks. It should be fun, just worried it will be a bit crowded. Shouldn't be too bad though because we just want food. Rain for Sunday when we take our day trip so wondering what hikes we will actually be able to do and whatnot. I do not mind a concert in the rain. Charlie spent the money on tix that I wouldn't have, so I do not need to stay the whole time for the show. That reminds me. I need to do some Math. I am making sure money gets put away whether it makes us broke or not. Now we just need to get to 5k before the end of June. That will really push the limits, but with the grad party coming up and all that shit. It needs to be done ASAP.  

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