Thursday, end of Retrograde.

 So, my expectations for yesterday were a bit let down but I did get a nice card. Today should be better, but not really counting on it now. 

I actually wanted to go to a class yesterday, but ended up shopping with the kiddo for new sheets and shirts. He used my gift and that is okay. the store never has things for him and they had a ton of t shirts, so win win. 

Today, Fusion kick my ass class if after work. Which reminds me that I need to pack a change of clothes. 

I finished the last lesson from the last batch of them and onto the next. Math in my head needs to be done and I need to practice. Should get a bunch more today and then hopefully she will release another lesson. 

Just keep going. Cus ya never know. 

It is the end of the retrograde, so hopefully the emotions will calm the fuck down. Finding the new normal and how I am actually appreciated was good enough for me yesterday. Now I know to just stick to myself and to keep going. My job is great and I probably won't go far from it, but if anything were to ever happen like it did at M&T then I would have something to lean on. Also, there is always better jobs out there. The people are hard to find. I have learned not to advance if the people are good so these ones will do. 

I did connect with one of my closest friends yesterday about the flowers and it was a nice segway into I friggin miss her. Hopefully she can make some time to walk and catch up. Weather fucking pending in this shithole. Almost May and we had a freeze last night. Hate it. 

Poop time. Then some more time to reflect on the new upcoming month and goals. Or not. Things to celebrate and must go. 

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