Taxes, Dreams, Stay away from the news

 I really need to get into the habit of not looking on my fucking phone in the morning. Cops shot not far from us. Just a lot going on it seems lately and none of it good. But it is an election year so that is what they want you to believe. I have once again shut off socials and I will just need to stop. Cold turkey. Time to get back into focus of my goals. Hopefully my head will go more than a few days without hurting, but wondering if it is my anxiety. Maybe I should take a pill. 

Paid taxes right on the very last day of needing to do so. No regrets. So far. Hoping there was a miscalculation and some money comes back. At least it didn't hurt our savings too bad. 

In other news - Charlie's ex is now single and he is acting weird. It is probably me, but this morning he basically ran out of the door with nothing. No wallet, no keys, forgot trash and he still got up at 4am, so wondering what is throwing him off. Again, hopefully just an off day. 

I did manage to make myself get out of bed at 6:30 and shower so that is a plus for me. I even took the trash to the curb, something I actually may have never done since we moved here. I did not do the neighborly thing though because he has a fucking toilet out there and I want it gone. He is being lazy so yeah. I will ask Ryan to do it when he walks to school. Yep nice enough day. Today & tomorrow then back to the rain. 

I did go for a walk yesterday though and get some spring has sprung pictures so that was nice. Oh yeah and I dyed my hair. Once again forgetting purple has red undertones and will be more red than purple and I should of went with the blue black for a purple effect. At least I did not fry it all to hell and it looks nice. A few weeks and I will do the blue black in hopes of purple. No one will touch this hair now. 

Back to the Ex thing - she fucking up and moved her & her kid to the other side of Buffalo without even mentioning it to Charlie. She pisses me off so much. It is the kid's senior year. Just imagine it must of been bad though to move like that. Either way she has made no plans for the graduation, so at this point I am taking over and will see what comes of it. 

Maybe in the evenings when hubby has time to do it with me because he never has time lately and if I cannot get to school work at work then I need to be making time to do it at home. Work may be busy today. I was out Friday and nice days bring walk-ins. 

I am going to do better at not letting my mind wander and get some things done. Exercise will come in between and when I have time. I will at least make time for an evening walk if I can't get to anything else. 

I think I have been sleeping pretty good lately. Windows open at night makes a huge difference. 

This week I will just try to get out of bed earlier and earlier. Even though that then makes bedtime earlier, so not sure how that works. I make all these plans and then on the day I am really like that's not going to work for me so whatever - I will just go with it and see what I can accomplish without burning myself out. Main goals are school at the moment. I want to get this last one in by the end of next week. She might of even released a new subject too because I can do 2 at once, but either way that is definitely the plan for that and I need to stick to it. They are already calling me about Fall classes. This is hard, but definitely something I want to keep doing. I was talking with someone at work and yep she was like good for you (at your age) (she's the same age) but when my reasons came out, it made sense. I do not want to be left with nothing to stand on if I ever have to look for another job. I thought family law was for me, but I may not be able to handle the emotions and stories that come with that one. We will see though. 

Hubby asked me to go to bowling with him tonight, but really - I do not want to. I do not like just going to watch him do all of his things all of the time. He then considers that quality time and welp. No, it does not count so if I do not go then that argument is avoided. Plus if he is out maybe just maybe I will get off my ass and work out. Ha, maybe. 

I do want to go on a hike this Sunday as it looks promising and our weekends have a small opening now. Hopefully he will plan to do that. There was a thing Friday that I asked a co-worker to do, but she ignored me so I dunno maybe I will do it by myself. Charlie would go, but then that is 80 bucks for us both to do it and well - I can think of better things to spend that on. 

I left my lunch bag at work, but it already has breakfast and lunch in it. I didn't eat it the other day because we ordered food that I thought was on work, but then got a Venmo request. I won't be falling for that one again. 

Walking on lunch break is a must today. It will be nice. Time to get motivated to get ready for work.