Taking a Me day

 Well the calling in guilt is setting in along with the what can I get done around the house shit. But I am unplugging. After this. My head has been hurting for 3 days. It does not hurt yet today, but my body hurts. My mind wants rest and weather is shitty. So, I am going to get the kiddo off to school. Go back to bed and then decide my day after some much needed rest. I have deleted the socials so I do not doom scroll all day. Hoping my fucking cats will let me rest because they have not since one puked all over at 4am.

I decided after much needed rest that I will start fresh next week. Really get on it. But not every day so I do not burn myself out. Trying to keep up with my husband is stupid. One he is in his own little world and 2, I just don't have it in me. This weekend he has to go to Rochester so I think I will either take the time to do school work while the kiddo hang with his friends or hang with my kiddo. 

So, on a real note. Yesterday was a busy day and honestly I do not think I need to read everyone's file. People came in and their energies were soaked in by my especially this one girl who - probably won't leave a bad situation. A heated guy that is the dad of one of my son's classmates that we denied help due to conflict and then this woman who I cannot even begin her story because it is a mess and I am glad we can help her. I watched her kids for an hour and well that wasn't so bad. Just with a headache all day, just drained me. Then at home my fucking kid and his mouth. My absent husband. Even when he is here. Just done with it all this week and need some rest. 

I am going to give into the energy I feel and that is just to rest and recoop. Next week's weather will be much like this so definitely a day by day. I can feel the cold coming back and yeah enough crying about the weather. I will use it to my advantage. Maybe watch a movie that will make me cry. Full release. 

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