Sugar, love hate relationship

 Ugh so sugar the cause of depression. Yep, I think that is a random fact that may be true. It makes total sense. So, how to have less? Stocking the fridge with ice cream sandwiches and real ice cream, not my best idea. An addiction I still have then. This week I get back to myself. 

I went and bought some hair dye. It cost me 50 bucks - mostly because I bought a nice conditioner too. Better than 300. We will see. Same brand I used last time so I think it will be okay. Then in a couple weeks, another haircut for some bangs. 

Hubby will be out in Rochester all day today so just me and the kiddo. He has his last day of bowling for his regular league and then a tournament here in Lostport. Of course the cats are acting like fools and the weather is still complete shit with added fucking barely 30 degrees. 

It should be a good day though. Just me and my baby boy. I will get some cleaning done later, but I think I will see if he wants to go look for some new t-shirts. Maybe a junk food movie night should be in order. Hubby will be beat when he gets home, but we have nothing to do on Sunday so I think that is when I will dye my hair. 

Trying not to read into the fact that my husband went with me and the first color he picked was the exact color red of his ex wife. Should of started screaming at him in the store, but I didn't and I mentioned it when we got home. As usual, he just plays dumbass instead of telling me how he really feels. Super fun. I do need some friends. Or someone other than a therapist outside of this household & work. Maybe more gym time will help with that.

Anyways, today - hopefully my kid's mouth will not set me into a demon mom and we will have a great day. 

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