Earth Day & oral reports

 Well I did it. I finally fucking made it to a 6am class !! Go me and happy Monday. I am always overly motivated on Monday, ask me how I am feeling on Thursday. I plan on going the Monday, Wednesday & Friday classes, but we will see. I will do my best. But it is a good feeling and the class didn't kick my ass that much. I always say that though and then the next day I cannot move. Having a berry protein smoothie and wondering how long it will take me to want or need coffee. Maybe tea later. I didn't sleep well so hoping that wall does not come too early. I want to finish my oral presentation this week and hopefully be done with these 3 lessons by the end of the week. Like done, done. No going back done and onto the next ones so I can finish this fucking program. 

I can't wait to shower, but the kiddo in there and I must wait until he at least leaves for school. In which is walking. No phone or video games today. Caught him up playing at almost midnight last night - in my uncomfortable attempt to sleep. So, yeah. He better not even ask. Very disappointed in him lately, but it is also not worth the fight. Learning to let him deal with his own self made consequences has been something new for the both of us and well, time for me to let go of the reigns a little. I guess. Almost 13. 13 years ago my surprise son came into my life. With the way I was going though, I really need to stop calling it a surprise. I wasn't responsible, I was sick and just way too drunk all of the time. I should of known I had a growing boy inside of me. Either way, one of the best gifts that the universe has given me. 

The dreams of his dad last night though, not so much. More false hopes in there and I will not do that to myself or him. I also think I will bring my book to work for some breaks in between the nothing that is usually Mondays. People don't even really come in. 

Haha can't stop watching the video of the racoon trying to climb the tree and what sounds like a cardinal or something chirping at almost 4am on the birdie cam. 

I also seem to be the liaison for the Flowers of Lockport, even though I quit it last year. People have been calling me and now I think I need to make it my thing again and figure out when people are going to get the order forms and yada yada. 

The kid is finally out of the shower, now to see if there is hot water left. Woo.  

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