April

 Welcoming April in hopes that it will break the cold snap. Eclipse week is here and now until the eclipse will be intense, maybe. Hopefully not. A sign of impending change is what I am getting from a dead Seagal I saw last night. I am feeling a little more like myself even though it is pms week. So, the usually snappy is there, but I feel motivated again. To get back into my routines of fitness and school work. I did get caught up in a new video game. Coral Island. I have decided to use that as a reward if I go to the gym for an hour and get some school work done. I also decided to save the oral presentation for last in the work that I need to do. In office checks are after everything is completed - which I hate - it should be as it comes, but not just my time so I get it. So, I will do all of the other work and save that kind of shit for last so it is on my mine fresh. 

Then the plan to force myself to the gym even though it is decent enough to walk the track outside. Yesterday I played some pickleball. Well more like hit the ball back and forth. I liked it, but do not think I am ready for a full game. I might do that later if it is not too cold. At least an hour of something every day. New month, new cycle coming in. I can feel it. 

I was going to try and sleep in due to the fact the kiddo is off all week and I do not have to get him ready and out of the door. But I stayed in bed until 7 then decided I needed to journal and have coffee. 

I have also deleted the Facebook app once again in an attempt to stop scrolling my life away. 

Things I have also decided during this retrograde - if an ex reaches out - one in particular. DO NOT Respond. I always wait for him to reach out then I respond, but not this time. But I think that is closed now so not worried about it. 

Hoping work goes okay this week and fast so I can enjoy the long weekend even though it will be pretty busy. We have the boys' banquet this weekend. I decided to do an adult/child league with my kiddo on Mondays for the summer. 

I haven't shit in days and I need to detox. I told hubby that is first this week before the gym shit. I have been eating way too much like shit. I made a nice brunch yesterday that was well balanced but ate like 6 cinnamon rolls. So, yeah. 

I will not be signing up for the next Zumba, but will drop in for Crystal's classes. So, really need Facebook for that. I keep envisioning myself leading a class - of some sort - but I am not that much of a people person. Maybe though. 

I am still pretty tired. Well Happy April - 4 months in already. Seriously need some nice warm weather though. 

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