ST Patrick's Day

 It used to be a day that I liked to celebrate like the typical American. Even though I seldom went out drinking on this day since I have been back in NY. Didn't want to risk it. Now this is the day tied to Hubby's dad's death even though it did not happen on this day. This is the day however, that the family had to deal with the grief and reality set in that he was gone. So, now this day for me is getting my husband through it. I have been gaging him all week and as usual he just says he is okay. Not sure when he will deal with it, but a little worried about having just him and my son hang out all day - we will see if he asks me to go. 

I have schoolwork to do. I need to watch a movie and do all the things that go with that. Watching a movie needs my full attention because I get very distracted in movies. But I need to buckle down on this school work and keep the pace so I can start college classes in Fall. The weather this week is just going to put me back into winter blues anyways so I may as well just get it done. Pretty sure I have said that line before. 

This week I was going to try a couple new classes, but now I am rethinking. If I like them, then that is another fee I will have to pay. I think if I am going to do anything, it should be to go to the Y. That is what we pay for and they have plenty to do. The crowds will die down it gets warm. The kids, might not. I think that is my biggest pet peeve with that place at the moment. I do like that there is a place for them, but it makes me not want to be there so bad. I will keep telling myself that there will be less people though so I can make myself go. I am going to just bring a bag of stuff to change into and go right after work. Then I can do whatever like walk the track or on a treadmill. Build myself up to go to a class afterwards or whatever. I think the boys can wait for dinner and we can eat after all of that. So, that is the new plan. Then I can come home, eat, clean up and have an hour to relax or do school work. Meaning my quiet mornings will become more sacred. Trying to make myself do much else than this in the morning is just not happening. Maybe when it is warmer. 

Today though I am going to do some stuff at home like some dumbbells. Still need a lot of work on these arms if I want to wear tank tops this summer. 

Today's plan if I can make it go accordingly - depending on if my husband wants me around today - is to clean the living room, workout, shower, make my hair curly and then lock myself up to watch the movie - haven't quite decided which one and then do my school work. If I can accomplish all of this before or around dinner time then I can relax this evening. If not, then I have to make dinner then do more work before I can relax. The boys will only be gone until mid afternoon I think so we will see. 

time to get started. 

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