Sleep after fresh air

 Ah felt so good. Waking up to another beautiful day before it gets back to regular NY weather. My son however does not think I was serious about making him walk today. He will just be late because this is literally the only time I will have to myself other than getting my hair done and honestly - that stresses me out so much. I think I am just doing a regular treatment today, but still. Socializing with people I do not know and if I get stuck there for 3 hours again, I might lose my mind. 

I might be stressing myself out about the work load for school. I need to remember this goes at my pace and just to take it one lesson at a time. It should be cool. I am learning something that I do not know anything about, so I really will be learning. 

So, yeah I will probably work on some at work as it is still slow, but with the nice weather we did pick up. While I was gone. Which was silly. I think I want to wear my purple and black flower dress today.  I am supposed to walk on lunch so hopefully it will not be too windy. 

I do feel better than I did yesterday. I talked to the hubby. I better not get my period tomorrow. I do not want to feel like complete shit during the concert or the whole day leading up to it. 

Mom guilt is kicking in. I can feel the kiddo's anxiety about walking. I must stay strong. It is a beautiful day to walk. He really enjoyed hanging out with a couple friends yesterday even though he tried to push it a bit on the time. I went out again to take the kid home and they tell me not 630 - he can stay until 7. I was like nah we are doing this now because I have shit to do. Hubby pulled in as we were leaving so he drove. We got meal prep done and I made a pizza. We all ate it. 

I need to stop eating good all day and then coming home, eating two kinds of chips, muddy buddy chex mix ad other shit. Then eating a pizza after 8pm - we went to bed almost immediately after that and I think that is what is bugging me. 

Oh well today is a new day. I have my meal prepped lunches, I will make some oats and have other healthy snacks. I wish I bought some grapes. I will walk on lunch and make sure I get up every hour for at least 5 mins. At the end of the work day, that is about 40 mins of movement. 

I only have 15 mins before I need to get ready and start my day so I will leave this now. 

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