Closing Friday

 I didn't even finish my entry yesterday. So, yeah just left that one as it is. Today is finally Friday, but closing Friday at work. They wait until the very last minute to close files. So, it is my busiest day. Should be pretty laid back though. School work though will need to be packed into this weekend. I feel like I am getting behind. 

My kiddo got a teacher call yesterday and welp - I had a feeling things were going well in French class. He has been coming home a little too attached to hanging out with me, but he chose not to talk to me about it and let the teacher do so after a few days of behavior issues. So, who knows what else he isn't telling me. I think this weekend will be a phone cleanse. For both of us. So, he is going to be a peach this morning. I have also canceled our movie, but will take him to get some new clothes as he needs them. 

I went to my hair appointment with that headache yesterday. I had high hopes for the head massage and instead got someone that didn't even make sure my hair didn't drip down my back. So, she tried to talk me into one more treatment. I said no. I can buy the whole line for less that what I have paid the last few times and it will last me a while, so I am done with that. Then she just sprayed my hair with gunk and blow dried it - which I honestly hate blow drying so even though I have an appointment. I am debating just doing it myself at this point. Especially if she charges hourly and thinks she is keeping me there for 6 hours. Ha. She is insane and no one is that good. I thought I saw that on her price chart so I need to double check.

Holy crap my kiddo got out of the shower before I forced him out at 30 mins! It might be a good day after all. 

I decided for Easter that I am just going to try and do a brunch with the boys. Or just nothing at all. And that is okay. My niece the one that asked me to do the hunt again, she has been getting into some trouble and honestly I just don't want the drama. So, that is not happening. As much as I want to see my nieces and nephew, I realized that the toxic life they live due to how their mother is and just do not want to be apart of it. 

Mom guilt moment I need to fight. Ryan asked me to take him to school today. My response was why would I take you to school when you can't tell me what is going on in school? Also, the deal is that he walks if it is decent and well other than the puddles, it is decent. Just a little cold. Ugh maybe I should take him. ... No. Ah fuck I am going to. 

Still upset that he isn't talking to me about stuff when I can clearly tell that stuff is going on that he needs to tell me. Being a parent is so hard. You never know what moment will be the one that fucks up your kid. Or what you are doing wrong when they do wrong because ya know it is always the parents fault. Am I too strict? Too mean? Too nosey? Not caring enough? Daily ongoing thoughts that never get answered. Fun stuff. I just want him to know that I love him no matter what and it really hurts my feelings when he doesn't feel comfortable talking to me about what is going on in his life. I am the same with Jasmine and even my hubby. 

My hubby who is handling this week as I thought he would. By not. And just being a bit of a harsh asshole here and there. It will come though and I will be here for him. 

Time to get this day started.