Back Pain

 Trying to find the actual cause of this back pain is probably not the best guessing game. Constipation, lifting shit I shouldn't, breathing, whatever the reason - I think it might be time to get it worked out. Only concerning because one - I haven't pooped in a long time and it is just pissing me off at this point. I have done all of the things apart from taking some laxative. That is today. My period hasn't started so not sure what that is all about so yeah just guessing and getting more anxious. Being anxious pisses me off. 

I finally did some school work yesterday. More will get done today. The boys have bowling an hour away and if I have to stand the whole time well my legs will most likely give out so not going. Yep. Went to put my phone on the charger and could not walk back to the living room. I had to have Charlie carry me to the bed. So, heating pad and taking it easy trying to relieve this pain, but it might be from my bed. Super. 

I was going to try some free classes at this place I do Zumba at on Sundays, but then realized if I do like them I will need to pay for them and I am done paying extras. Once it gets warmer no one will be at the Y and I will also be going outside for my walks so popping into a class should be doable. 

Other than another winter like day today, I guess I am up. It is 9am already due to daylight savings time. Feeling that. I am going to wake the kiddo in about 30 mins. 

Thinking about the new moon and finally think I am motivated again. At least for school. Fitness - well with my back pain just wondering about what issues will arise once I get this shit looked at. 

So, today - today I will do what I did yesterday and do school work. In between, I will clean my room. I did everything else yesterday. I am making baked potato soup so once that is in the crockpot, it will be good. 

This week I am not sure how work will go, but hopefully my mood will be better. I feel something underlining there, but can't really place it. I am letting it go though and focusing on MY work and getting school work done. If things do not work out, I want to have something to fall onto this time. 

I might venture out to the Aldi later or TJ Maxx. I am in the mood for some Spring decor. I also need to plan meals for the week. I think we have a enough lunch preps left. Maybe get some chicken for those though. As usual, I did not eat all of mine. 

Hmm is heavy whipping cream like cheese? Maybe this is why I still have not pooed. The laxative makes me feel horrible, but it needs to be done at this point. I ate fiber upon fiber yesterday - nothing is budging. 

Maybe some more sleep would do me some good. 

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