26 degrees

 That pretty much sums up how the weekend will be with rain coming in tonight. Said it would get up to 60 today so hubby says he will grill. We shall see. With later sunsets also coming this weekend, I am in a better mood. Probably until I get to work. I am really going to focus on just doing my job and not being involved. Lay low until I get this degree and then decide my future. 

Sounds like they have plans of their own so I am worried about that as far as seniority goes. Patience. Still trying to learn that shit. Hopefully while I was out they rearranged how they want things to look then. 

Both Mama and Papa cardinals were on the feeder this morning. Male watching the sun rise while she ate. It was quite beautiful. 

Not sure if my son is aware, but he is walking to school today. Then I will get ready. Jeans and a sweater. Easy enough for a Friday. 

So, today. Work, School work. Have dinner, more school work - maybe. Might depend on how much I can get done at work today. 

The annoyance from Wednesday is trying to rise, but I will let it go. Just so annoying that things are being based on looks rather than convenience and also security which was never a fucking thought with design. I literally can't even see who is coming to my window if I have my door shut until they are are at the window. So, yeah I really wish someone who ask me about that. 

I definitely needs to burn some sage. 

Old habits die hard. I was going to see if drinking orange juice instead of coffee this morning would help but I loaded up a cup of coffee because I just didn't want a sugar rush this morning. Maybe tomorrow. 

I am debating Zumba tonight. I should probably go, then again if it does get nice enough a walk wouldn't be bad. 

Trying to do it all is extremely overwhelming, but I feel like I cannot slack on anything because it all needs to be done. I need to eat good to keep the weight off, and move to keep the weight off while trying to cut this other 10lbs that just ain't budging. Then sitting all day doing school work, my brain is just fried after that. 

I will do my best today. Which means not ordering lunch and eating my meal prep. I feel like I have my period without the bleeding part. Cramps, back pain, bloated. Super bitchy. That part I wish I could do something about, but other than hiding away from everyone - it is hard. Getting a secret pill for that is hard too. 

The kiddo tried playing games with me about staying home. "He puked in the shower" I didn't hear shit and also cool now clean it up. His friend does that all of the time and I am not falling for it. New season drops in his game later so I have the high hand for that bullshit. So here we go. 

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