Today was a weird day

 All around - just from the weather to events - just weird. Then I think is it because I am back into the real world? The moon, planets and all of the above I assume. Where to start - no fucking idea. Work kind of sucked from just being alone in my office all day to really just not feeling it because the day started out beautiful - 60 & sunny. I even opened windows before I left for work. Then the other reason for that is because I think I was poisoning my kid. I am not even sure what made this thought go into my head, but it went and I think I was right. He has been fighting a fever and just not feeling 100%. Well I made him put a cat box in his room because honestly no idea where to put the 3rd. Well it did not get cleaned as normal because of this being forgotten and then yeah ammonia in cat piss. So, I think that is why he has been off. His room gets hot and super stuffy when the heat is on and the air in there was just bad. So, that was aired out today and the box has been removed. 

Other than feeling lonely - tried to be nice to the office bitch and well she was a bitch. Then two of the other girls I thought I was cool with - they walked to the coffee shop without me. So, that sucked. Got into with one, but that was quickly resolved as I knew what I was talking about and she did not. One of the other girls has been out due to a death in the family. Two accidents at the same time right by my house. Got me worried for my kiddo walking home. A nice day and people are just fucking stupid. Then the weather turned and it just got weirder. A couple girls including my instructor came in with some sort of an injury. We did go over my work and overall - I just need to fucking copy and paste the resources and hopefully complete it then. I will worry about that tomorrow. 

I have been binging Farm games on my phone and now pc. At work too. Not liking the energy around me and that is comfort. Glad Zumba is tomorrow, but worried about my knee with everything going on lately. Extra worried. 

A missing man that my hubby knew was found tonight in the canal. When I drove by I thought it was just a drill for the fire dept, but they were pulling him out. Not sure how that worked as the canal  was drained so super suspicious or just really fucking sad. A medium is claiming to have found him even though she didn't find him. Even though I believe in all of that shit, I am not sure I believe that then again. I do. 

I know the energy the next few days and basically through March will be stripping parts of me away and pushing me into my path a little harder. I need to learn how to go with the flow really fast. Keep hearing that I am supposed to be in my most social time of the month, but honestly. I do not want to be. 

I know, I know - do not isolate, but whenever I try people are just assholes and I am way too sensitive to deal. Luckily next week I will get some date night time with hubby so hopefully that will help. Really wish we would stop planning shit on my period. Ha. Better than now when I have fucking PMS. 15 more mins and I can go to bed because sleep is needed and I just want a day to do that and nothing else. Yet, when I get those days, I can't sleep. The joys of life. 

That is all of my whining for now. Hopefully it will help me sleep because again - today was just weird. Tomorrow the weather will be complete shit, but hoping that it will be better. 

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