It's only Tuesday

 It feels like another Monday. Low energy due to period and post covid. Wishing sleep was on the agenda because I barely got any last night. Not even because of Charlie's snoring. Just was not happening for me. Figures, I didn't even stay up scrolling. Weird ass dreams though. That was kind of a mix o everything. Flooding, runaway cows, some new people from class, and even old shit. 

Another frosty morning. I was hot yesterday in my office. Not sure what that was all about. Hopefully not a fever because it was definitely cold in there. We will see today. Work and class. I am testing for this other program. I hope I can get in. If not, I have a back up plan and it is basically just self teaching at home more. No tutor. So, we will see which way I need to go. Baby steps. 

Kiddo is back to school finally today and he is still in the damn shower. It is 730. Hope he dresses quick. I got dinner in the crockpot and won't be home until 7.

So, one thing on my mind is Valentine's day - not my favorite day, but my hubby loves it because well he loves to be showered with love and things. So, trying to think of something romantic to get him because I basically shot down his idea of going to the movies at 7pm on a Wednesday. Fuck it. I am THAT old. 

It is time to love the life I built. There is really nothing wrong with it. Struggle bus or not, at least I have someone to ride with. We have come a long way. I need to stop stressing myself and him out. THAT is what I need to work on this year. Not my weight, or money. My mind and just going with the flow of life. Good or bad - just letting what happens, happen and working through it.

Yes, I need to get back onto my health & wellness shit, but not stress when I fuck up. Zumba this session is not for me. I went to bond with ladies and possibly make some friends. I did not. And I do not care anymore. On days I do not feel like packing in GED shit though, I will pack in a yoga or something along those lines for a Zen moment and some balance/strength training. 

I think I found my happy medium weight wise. Other than toning things up to be less jiggly. I am happy with the work my body has done and can say I am mostly comfortable in my own skin. 

Anyways, time to get this kid to school and get ready myself. Until later. 

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