Birthday weekend

 Still one more day, but I am "partied" out. The concert was okay. Had my fun and left early. Wanted a drink to be honest, but glad I decided I was tired and wanted to go home instead. Husband obliged. Friday we all went out to the casino buffet and I didn't overdo it, but I officially feel the pounds loading in after everything the last few days. Today was a magical day of going to do what I wanted to do for my bday which was a psychic fair. On the way there was a flock of Swans ! All in the marsh on a beautiful day. Those pictures will be a great memory. Then tons of new stones, but no readings. Other than the prices for one, I was not feeling drawn to anyone in particular. I did spend a lot of money and shopper remorse might be setting in. 

Tuesday I get my hair cut and will discuss coloring. Hopefully that is not outrageous. My birthday month is always a splurge and did not contain myself. Other than eating like complete shit though. I feel it is complete. Meals planned to get back on track and tomorrow for the Superbowl, I shouldn't go over board. Making ribs, a dip and a veggie tray. Easy enough. Money put away for savings and enough to live on and I am thankful for that. And my boys. Spending my birthday weekend with them just reminds me where my focus is and will always b. When it comes down to it. They are all I have. 

Focus needs to get back on track, but I am realizing that I am doing the best I can and making sure every day is meaningful with the people closest to me. So, what else can I do? Well get the house in order a little bit more. If the weather is breaking from the short lived winter - then definitely need to get into Spring cleaning mode - especially outside. 

I have some new candles for intentions and the moon. So, I need to rearrange my alter and get that to my liking. 

I do have intentions to set and to really start working on them. I did not go and take the last part of the exam to get into this fucking program. If they tell me there is more after this, I might lose my mind, but need to make time to go. During work hours. I think Tuesday - I may leave work a bit early to do so before class - especially because I will be leaving class early to get my hair done. I need to not feel bad about rearranging my schedule in order to take care of these things. I felt bad about wanting to leave work - so I did not go. Which was silly because I literally sat for two hours doing nothing. I was also tired. Excuses, but who can sit down for a test when exhausted. So, back on track this week and into the rest of this month in all things. 

Wanted to do a romantic weekend or at least night with my husband, but that has to keep getting rearranged. Fuck, I just want to have some sex. Scheduling this shit is getting annoying, but we are really trying to find time in between things and not when we are exhausted. It is hard. Not to mention the little cockblocker around 24/7 - lol told my son's friend's grandpa I will be dropping him off this weekend and the old guy obliged lol can't wait to see his face when I actually do it. 

Wanted some time to think and get some things down for the new moon, but getting tired. This new moon is pushing some energy back into my plans and hopefully some willpower to stop talking and start doing. 

Another healthy, happy year is here and I need to start my efforts to make it happen. No more planning. Just do. 

But also rest without guilt.