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 So, quick moment because I refused to get up early than I wanted today. Go me. I have Zumba tonight for the first time in weeks. My body is still sore from the last one I did at home. Yes, I know. hydrate more. yada yada. 

Work was steady yesterday, hoping for the same today. If not, I plan on working from home for my 3 hours tomorrow then ROAD TRIP! 

Ryan decided he wanted to stay up until his dad woke up for work this morning so yeah at 4am he was told to go sleep. I was sleeping and Charlie thought I needed to be woken up to let me know he was still awake. I of course yelled then tell him to fucking go to bed. Seriously though. Did I need to be awake for that? Then asks me how I slept. I went to bed at 9 with him and couldn't fall asleep until close to midnight. Every time I was about to be asleep, a cat decided different. 

So yeah stayed in bed until almost 8. Spring break for the kiddo so he can enjoy it. I will let him sleep. Tonight we will pack up for the trip - I will work for a few hours tomorrow then pick up the kiddo from home, and then go get hubby from work - then we are off to Cleveland. I really want Ryan to compromise this trip and maybe stay an extra night in Cleveland find some fun things to do, but he is really set on the Splash Lagoon idea and well we put it there so I guess we shouldn't take it away. 

I think my real issue with that is that I will want to drink. We have not been there since I quit and because of all the fucking people there, it always calmed me to have a few. Thought the longer I went without a drink, the easier it would be, but now the weather is breaking and we are doing old things we used to. I know this is a moment to break the habit in the timeline so I will, but it might not be easy. I think I will talk to hubby about it tonight. That might help. 

I hope I hear something about my school work because I pretty much finished it and will finish the rest of the lessons at some point today. I did not get to any at work, but made some time last night to do two. One left. 

Time is up and I need to get out of the door. More tomorrow as I will be getting pretty anxious. 

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