Until the medicine kicks in

 Well today was a rough day not really health wise, I am beat and yes my chest hurts on one side, but mu kid. It is like oh hey - you have to stay home and he goes into vacation mode. He stayed up all night, slept until noon and just plain has been an asshole with his mouth all day. But nope - I go in and tell him it is bedtime and all hell breaks loose. So I took the phone. More hell. He is pissed, but really just because he feels fine doesn't mean he gets to treat this like a holiday. Maybe on Friday as he will not be going to bowling. Maybe depending on our tests on Friday. 

I have witchy shit to do and cannot do it in good vibes while feeling like shit so hopefully this subsides soon. I hugged hubby tonight. Hopefully that isn't what gets him sick. We both decided that we could not sleep and met in the kitchen - unknowingly - and had an ice cream bar. 

Oh yeah what started my son's nonsense was that we are supposed to be staying away from community items and I wanted a peanut butter sammich. To what do I find ? My kid eating out of the tub, in his room. So, first strike. Then tons of cough drop wrappers because welp he is eating that shit like candy. Then I saw actual candy. Yelled at him about that and so I took the phone. Then all hell broke loose. I think one of the phrases I said to him today because it looked like he was bullying someone on snapchat - and I yelled ay him about that, got attitude, told him to delete the fucking app because I am just tired of policing it. Anyways, yeah so it started there and my phrase was " if you wanna be an asshole, call your dad and go live with him - because I am not raising one" - A bit harsh, but wtf. I do not like how he treats people sometimes. But maybe - well obviously right? It is who raised you? Ugh. So, the phone is mine. I will not give in tomorrow until at least after school hours and honestly - I might just go get the school work myself if it is available. Charlie has a big thing at Cj's bowling and I do not want him to miss it. Senior "night" very exciting and sucks I am quarantined and can't go. Even though I just found out today that is was happening and had a hair appointment so there's that. Interesting. 

Oh well I am depressed about my hair, but maybe it is time to just find someone completely new. Probably best. 

Patience seems to be the key so far this year and as usual I lack it. So, I will try. Really think I will take another day off just to recoup from recuperating if I am even feeling better. God, please let me feel better. 

I saw that my friend who passed away's band is reuniting. I guess they found a replacement which after all these years was still probably hard. Too bad it is in Dallas. Would love to be there. Sure they will be doing a nice tribute also. Smooth Choppy. Hope they know most of their listens on Spotify are from me lol jk but they might be. A good reminder though 

SOMETIMES IT'S SMOOTH, SOMETIMES IT'S CHOPPY. 

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