Old Habits Won't Die

 Sometimes now matter how much you plan, you just cannot do it all. That is what I determined yesterday after a full day of work, Zumba, dinner, running to practice, ect. Got to grocery shopping and I did not even make a list. Was to exhausted to go. Feels like winter is making a come back, or start or whatever. It also is not giving up. So the cold is kicking my ass. Everything hurts. Zumba kicked my ass a little too. I am still eating like somewhat shit. I did super good then - helping Charlie with his court papers - decided I needed a big bowl of rice crispies. Sugar and all. Whole milk not almond milk. I swear I woke up 3 sizes bigger. 

My period is coming also, so yay. My eating habits really don't care when that is coming. So yeah - not getting it all done and already failing my new year plans. Or am I ? I think this year was to continue doing the good things in which or the most part I am and not to kick myself if I get down. Self Sabotage my number one vice. 

So trying to get back on track. Smoothies in the morning, bad - I am still hungry and then seem more so throughout the day. Probably the sugar cravings. More water, a must, yesterday I forgot my bottles. Must not forget today even though apparently I forgot about an alarm and thankfully a cat made a noise to wake me up. Anyways, so yeah no before work smoothies, more water, actually eating a lunch and not skipping it which is hard on days that I take my son to practice and honestly I am sometimes just not hungry at lunch time. Maybe a coffee then? I have been trying to drink tea at work to keep warm. Not looking forward to today. It will actually be sunny, but fucking cold which means there is no hope for warmth in there today. Wearing jeans. Fuck it. My nice clothes only go so far too.

My nerves are with my hubby today and his court case with his ex. She enjoys playing baby games with his kid. Hopefully though this will resolve her expecting him to pay so much for everything especially when his kid should start chipping in now that he is 17. More so though I hope he stands up for himself because she tries to make him look like a shitty dad and he is far from that and her bullshit is just silly.

Hoping everyone at work is in a little bit of a better mood today. Thinking about how miserable they will be is making me miserable. I think if anyone complains to me about their job though - I will tell them to find a new one. lol Fuck it. 

That is enough from me for now. I will do better eating wise today. That is my goal. 

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