Baby Steps

 Well I am super proud of myself - yesterday - I did a workout before bed and I really like it, but I got a horrible headache that I haven't been able to shake since. I did not make any excused though. Son, had a snow day, I should go into work anyways, my head hurts, it is shitty out. None of it. I went and took the test to find out where I stand for the GED and it took forever, but I did it. The lady who guided me today was okay, but basically said any homeschooling was useless and made me admit that I am uneducated. Still passed reading at a college level - Math was mostly guessing because I could not google answers so did not do that well. Either way - Tuesday nights will be for classes until I am ready to take it. Not sure how I did on the 2nd rounds of testing. We will see Tuesday. 

My head hurts - now the kid wants me to make him a grilled cheese. Debated going to lunch, but the roads are not the best. Lightly snowing and Buffalo is still getting slammed. Ryan finally got his snow day. Neighbor with the sweet four wheeler is kindly doing the driveway and even our side. Thankful for that. Paying another 40 bucks for that the plow guy did last time - not worth it, but will do if we get slammed with snow. 

So now I have the rest of he day off - what to do? Charlie asked me to meet him at the gym at 3:30. Possibly if I can get rid of this headache - with all the yelling coming from the kid about stupid Fortnite. Likely not going to happen. I did want to check out the Fusion class though. 


Well tried to nap - did some dishes - do not want to get out of bed - but have to make dinner soon. so, back to this. If my eyes can take it because this migraine is still being annoying. 

So, some huge things are coming with the planets, manifesting and such for the next 20 yrs. A huge conjuncture towards our future. I think that this might be what is really draining my energy because i can feel the pull. Something inside me is ending and I am shedding into this new me. A me I wanted when I was young. The drive is finally there, yes fear of age and what not, but I can feel this with every part of me. 

A fit, healthy minded, educated - ME. I am ready. I am becoming the best version of myself. The 20th is huge for this and I think whenever I feel these big energies I just get down into a tired moment. I need to realize this is the universe pulling, pushing, putting me into place. Plus - my time is coming. AGE OF AQUARIUS. And Pluto moving in is a huge move. Trying to think of 2008 - I know this was not a great time for me. I was a complete mess. I do finally feel free of this me. 

2043 is when Pluto ends in Aquarius. From here on out I hope I can remember this moment. 

So yeah I think that is what is going on with my energies and I am trying to figure out how to push through. Today. Today is a rest day. I am enjoying bed, watching the snow through the windows. Going to make a good carb filled dinner and watch my show. Maybe some puzzle. Tomorrow is Friday. 

But today - one day at a time. I accomplished the GED prep test. Aspen still has NOT called me back about this dental work so I think I will need to look into a different place. 

I am going to prep dinner now. 

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