2024, it's official

 Last year's blogs I actually thought people read them so I held names and such - this year - nah. I am ready for 2024 and will go back to speaking my mind, but with maybe some love and care. My thoughts will be authentic and so will be whatever the fuck I have to say. 

I worked my ass off last year following a fitness journey, but little did I know - it would be my whole life. Mental health at the top for once. Thinking clearly in my old age, feeling healthier than I have ever been and all I had to do was change my eating habits, get off my ass more than once a day and think before I speak. Oh yeah and stop drinking. I think that was the easiest part though. 

One last day off before I got back to work after a week off was fucking magical. Being able to decompress after the holiday bullshit is a blessing. With retrograde, a full moon and the normal why is this my life shit, it was a bit much. Still grateful that I have this amazing job and eager to get back to work and continue this journey this year. Hoping to further my career or at least the relationships here. This path is leading me to things I never thought I could accomplish on my own. All of it. Yes with support for my guys and having a relationship with my daughter helps a lot too. 

So goals for the new year? Yes, I have a few. Going to continue this health and wellness lifestyle as best as I can. Need to get back to preparing meals and making what is listed. I think our number one goal this year is to stop and enjoy life without spending a ton. We are finally saving for a house. Like for real. No excuses or the YOLO bullshit. Buckling down and doing it. One paycheck down. So many more to go. 

Other goals are to continue my education to stay in this legal field? Maybe - all signs point to teaching, but really I do not want to teach any of the upcoming generations. So, I will need to figure that out. Paralegal works, just maybe not in the current field I am in. Or maybe as I have always wanted to do, implementing a training program within the company I work for, maybe this is the place to actually fucking do it. 

Charlie talked on the phone for almost an hour and then I decided to come into the room and journal - now he has been in here 3 times. I guess it is time to do something today. Christmas shit out. New year - in. 

One main goal once again - to try and handle things one day at a time. 

Today - live in gratefulness with my guys on our day off. Continue to be proud of the woman I became at 40 - yep 40 - and get ready for 41. To love, learn and enjoy life as much as possible while helping as many people as I can. 

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